Trust and Obey

"When we walk with the Lord, in the light of His word,
What a glory He sheds on our way.
When we do His goodwill, He abides with us still;
And to all who will trust and obey.

Trust and obey, for there's no other way,
To be happy in Jesus.
But to trust and obey..."

(I might have messed up the verse a little)
Any good, lifelong Southern Baptist should know the song above and should have been humming right along; if you don't know that song, it's a hymn, it's about trust.
TRUST...not my favorite word in the dictionary, neither is OBEY but that's a whole other subject for a whole other post.
So back to trust, I'm not very good at trusting; I'm a skeptic, I see the negative before the positive, I tend to keep my guard up a lot.  I could give you an entire back story on reasons why I don't trust, reasons I should maybe be in therapy, and reasons I'm a cynical person; but I wont, I would rather not blame my past for my present attitudes and behaviors, I'd rather just change them!
Poor Brad! Imagine what he went through when we were dating and in the first year or so of our marriage!!  I want to be more trusting, and a more positive person, and I am working toward that.  But I am a work in progress.  As another catchy church song from my childhood goes..."He's still working on me, to make me what I ought to be...."
Clearly my lack of trust in people, can only lead you to assume that I sometimes have a lack of trust in God.  Seriously?? The One who knew me before I was born, who in His sovereignty had a plan mapped out for my life, who allows me to take each breath I take; I have trouble trusting Him.  Now no one reading this should be staring at your computer screen with a super-spiritual look on your face, acting like you are shocked by this.  We all struggle with it...it's called flesh!!  But God is teaching me, in ways I may not like very much, to "trust and obey." In every decision I make, in all the plans Brad and I make about our home, our children, our finances, etc.  I am commanded to trust God.  I'm not sure why we so often think our plans are better than His, or why we don't "include" Him in the decisions we are making.  Praying over a situation, lifting it up before God, and allowing Him to give you the answer He desire for your life...that's how it should happen.  I'll be the first to admit, that's not always how it works in my life; the day-to-day mundane choices and decisions I make should be brought before God and whatever answer He gives, I should accept and move in that direction.  Several verses from the Bible have been flooding my brain today, as I have been praying about and thinking about things in my life where I need to trust God and give things over to Him.

"Be anxious for nothing, but in EVERYTHING by prayer and supplication, WITH THANKSGIVING, let your requests be made known to God" Phil. 4:6

"As for God, His way is perfect, the word of the Lord is proven; He is a shield to all who trust in Him.  For who is God, except the Lord?  And who is the rock except our God? God is my strength and power.  And he makes my way perfect" 2 Samuel 22:31 - 33

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.." Proverb 3:5

There were more, but you get the idea! Trust....a big, scary word and so hard to actually do.  So if you think about it, pray for me to put my trust in God.  That I will be obedient to His will and plan for my life and that I will learn to lean on Him and not my own strength.